Wednesday, June 14, 2017
Wiser?
Quick update for everyone, I'm currently pursuing my master's degree in UK. How time flies. I am thinking to post a special post dedicated to this one soon. InsyaAllah if I can be consistent posting in this blog. Probably I can, while waiting for sahur. I'm gonna keep it short this time. It feels so good to be typing again. I'll be writing soon, InsyaAllah. Assalamualaikum and Salam Ramadhan al-Mubarak.
Friday, June 17, 2016
DA Automatic License
Friday, February 12, 2016
Encorp Trainee
Saturday, December 19, 2015
Unidentified
Assalamualaikum,
I can't believe that i'm actually about to finish my degree soon. Time sure flies fast. At this young age i'm about to finish my degree. Alhamdulillah. Pray for my final year. Pray for my internship. Pray for my thesis. Pray for my viva. Pray for my life. Amin.
I wouldnt say i am an introvert. I am partially introvert and extrovert. I have small circles of friends. Honestly, i dont even know if i really mean anything to them. Do i give any impact in their life? Do i have a place in their hearts? Do i will remain in their mind? Do i exist anymore to them? I bet if i ask anyone to describe me they will have no idea how to. I'm not good at making new friends and i'm not good at maintaining good relationship with them. Gosh what is wrong with me.
Let's keep it short, i miss my friends 😭
Saturday, October 10, 2015
Internship
Assalamualaikum and hello
Since i'm in the mood for blogging after all these years please do expect few posts from me. Well, people are moving on to write on wordpress tumblr journal or whatever but here i am still stucked with my old blogging. I guess the sentimental value that makes me stay. Tho the feels of typing through phone and computer is totally different but hey we have to keep up to date with the technology. So i would like to thank the creater of blogger apps that make sure the blogger era has not die yet.
Okay back to my topic. Internship. What is that. Well in my university we called it practical industrial training where we experience hands on industrial work. I just love how it sounds when we call it internship. Sounds so professional i must say. So i just wanna share a short experience of mine going thru this whole internship thingy.
I cant really call it an experience because i am actually going thru it right now. Okay, before graduating it is an university requirement that we finish a 4 months training in any company and prepare a thesis as well in that period of time. Right now, i'm currently studying in semester 5 where i'll be going for an internship in semester 6. Well the process begin when you are in semester 5. You have to find a company. You have to prepare your outstanding resume. You have to go for an interview if they want you to do so. Its either phone or live interview. Any of it. You have to apply to many companies. You have to prepare for rejection. You have to prepare for plan B. Thats a lot of thing you need to do. First of all, just prepare your mental and physical. Even me myself are not mentally prepared. Now i'm in the state of applying to many companies. Which there are a few that i hope to give feedbacks. Pray for me. Bismillah to my journey. I hope everything goes well. May Allah ease my journey and the rest of my fellow friends.
I just wish that i keep an update of my life even if its short. Because you know, this is one of the thing that i will look back to when i'm old. This memories.
Alive
Assalamualaikum and hello.
Well hello to anyone that might read this blog. I'm shocked if there is any. As you can see i'm not a frequent blogger tho i promise i will be. However, i decided to log in to my blog today and i saw a comment from my lovely friend who reads my blog in 2015. I'm touched. I can actually crying any moment now. I can't believe that a friend of mine still reading my blog and are willing to scroll back to our memories years ago. That is also a reason why i don't delete any of my post. Eventho people always delete theirs to show that they have moved on to another phase of life. Well for me, i am moving on yet i will not erase any of my memories. Even i look stupid as hell in previous life. I dont care. Those are memories that i will never get back. I will treasure it like the precious things on earth.
So, a quick update about me. Well i'm graduating my bachelor degree soon. Wow. I'm not getting married yet haha. I'm going for an internship next year. I have been aunty/acu for 3 years now. Current update of my nephew and nieces are 4 and another 1 is coming soon. I'll post their photos soon if only we know how to properly snap them without all the kids running or crying or shouting. Yep. Soon maybe.
Thursday, July 17, 2014
Fasting 2014
Subhanallah, time flies so fast. Now it has been Ramadhan 2014. Soon we are reaching 2015. Now, let's reflect ourselves and see what have we change along this year and what can we improve shall we?
Are we a better muslim now? Are we a better person now? Are we a better mother/father/son/daughter now? Are we a better friends now? Of course we are improving to a better lives ahead of us and the life after this. Akhirat. We are targeting both future dunya and akhirat. I dont know why but im scared of not seeing Ramadhan 2015. So in this holy month lets try our best to get closer to Allah and be a better person inside and outside.
Salam Ramadhan Kareem 2014.
Insecurity
Whats up with insecurity? Guess what i found on google. Emotional insecurity or simply insecurity is a feeling of general unease or nervousness that may be triggered by perceiving of oneself to be vulnerable or inferior in some way, or a sense of vulnerability or instability which threatens one's self-image or ego.
I guess it describes everything that i'm feeling right now. Insecure this insecure that insecure everything. Seeing everything makes me scared of myself. Yup. I feels threaten with everything surrounding me.
I feel insecure seeing pretty people, i feel insecure seeing real muslimah, i feel insecure seeing married couples, i feel insecure seeing someone's lifestyle. Subhanallah. How selfish am i. But that is human being. Never feel enough of something. Its not that i dont appreciate or accepting what Allah gifted to me. It just what inside me that need to be change. I need to realize that i dont have to be insecure with everything. But how? The big question comes to my mind every time.
Can you imagine following pretty people on instagram and see how flawless beautiful they are and you wondering why you arent. Thats insecurity. You feel vulnerable and inferior by it. Thats how i feel right now. Not just about beauty. But just about everything. Attitudes, brain and looks. I dont want to be perfect because nobody is perfect. But im trying my best to be better. I need my confidence back. I dont wanna feel this insecurity in my self. Like people say 'insecurity can destroy you' thus i dont want to destroy myself. But how?
Saturday, March 1, 2014
I'm getting older
Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah for giving me chance to breathe in 2014 :') more than that thank you Allah for keeping me alive till my 19th years old in this amazing earth of yours. The words that been playing in my mind is that 'Allah masih hidupkan kita sebab nak bagi peluang untuk kita bertaubat' Subhanallah.
Since i'm getting older, i have more responsibilities, more duties toward Allah, toward my parents, and everyone. I have to be mature enough to handle things. Dont be so 'cengeng'. Kejar akhirat dan kita akan dapat akhirat dan dunia. InsyaAllah. Hidup ni bukan untuk duniawi sahaja. Slowly we change for our better future. Be better muslimah, better daughter, better sister, better aunty, better sibling, better friend and better ummah.
I remember when i was a kid, i just wanted a special birthday party for me. and yes i do get it. In fact i was the only one in my family to get such celebrations. But as i grew older, i think all of it means nothing if you dont have great and wonderful people around you to celebrate with you. Yep. All i need is my support system. My wonderful people who loves me as much as i love them. Alhamdulillah thank you Allah for giving me a chance to know and live with this wonderful people.
Thank you for all the wishes great people! Xx
Tuesday, December 24, 2013
Me & My Girls
Visa Application
Wednesday, November 20, 2013
Masih diskriminasi?
I admit that i am the youngest in my class wherever i go. Yeah, maybe it is weird to someone else but not to me. I'm proud of myself. I'm at the same level with people older than me. But truthfully, i dont even discriminate people by age or gender. I respect them as a people older than me yet they are still my closest friends. My friend never assume me as adik adik. They treat me like we all the same. And i love them for that.
I don't get hurt when people judge me or say that i'm not qualified for certain position, honestly i don't care.. Well actually i do care a bit, but let face it. I earned whatever reward/position/results that i get. With my own effort. So whatever you say does not matter cause i always be me and be forever young.
Friday, August 23, 2013
Sakit Sangat
Persahabatan yang terlalu lama terjalin pun boleh retak macam tu je. Kalau nak sentiasa bahagia dlm persahabatan kena la ada saling menghormati & mempercayai kan? Ayat cliche gila. Tapi betul.
Bayangkan persahabatan yang dah 10 tahun, bagai isi & kuku, org selalu kata macam beluncas. Tapi tanpa kita sedar tiba tiba mereka dah tak macam dulu. Dah tak serupa belangkas. Apabila masing masing mula membawa haluan masing masing. Tapi kita silap, persahabatan tak semestinya ditunjukkan kepada seluruh dunia. Tidak perlu bersama 24 jam. Yang paling indah apabila kita mengingati sahabat dalam doa kita. Itu sahabat sejati. Persahabatan yg rapat/ bff ni bukan berdasarkan berapa tahun berkawan, berapa banyak gossip dah share. Bukan bukan. Cukup sekadar mengambil berat & sentiasa mendoakam sahabat yang lain. Kadang kadang kita malu nak tunjuk yang kita sayang seseorang itu. Tak tunjuk yang sebenarnya kita sayang & rindu nak dengar celoteh dia, dengar kisah dia yang selalu dikongsi. Maka kita hanya berdiam diri menanti khabar yang di sana. Dan akhirnya terputus khabar begitu saja. Bila nak contact balik kita akan rasa segan yang amat sgt. Adakah dia ingat akan kita ni? Macam ni la yang selalunya buat kan terputus contact.
Point asal sebenarnya nak cerita pasal sakit sangat bila kawan cerita belakang. Sakit sangat. Tak tipu. Itu sebabnya i would prefer someone yang tunjuk dia tak suka orang itu. Eventho sangat rude tapi at least they are being honest. Bayangkan if yang sangat fake tu depan kita punya la mesra & baik. Tapi kat belakang dia cerita buruk pasal kita. Yang kita tak tahu wallahualam la. Tapi yang sakit sangat ni bila kita tau apa yang dorang cakap pasal kita tu. Boleh gugur air mata.
Just wanna share a story, ada hamba Allah ni, tersangat la rapat bersama kawan kawan dia. Lebih kurang 5 orang macam tu. Daripada sekolah lagi sehingga habis sekolah. Masa tu tak pernah ada masalah pun, kalau ada pun settle time juga & tak ada simpan dalam hati pun. Memang geng yang sempoi. Tapi semuanya berubah bila masing masing dpt plkn. Kecuali hamba Allah ni. Bila dah pulang dari plkn, masing masing masih sama berkawan seperti biasa cuma layanan mereka terhadap hamba Allah ni dah lain sangat. Sangat. Tapi hamba Allah ni hanya bersangka baik dengan kawan kawan dia. So dia pun buat dek je la. Yang paling sakitnya adalah bila satu hari tu, hamba Allah ni terbuka whatsapp kat fon kawan dia dan terjumpa satu group yang khas untuk kutuk hamba Allah ni. Ya Allah siapa yang tak sedih bila kawan yang kita sayang, dalam diam buat macam ni dekat kita kan. Boleh menangis woo. Tapi hamba Allah ni kuat, dia tahan & akhirnya dia berdepan je dengan kawan kawan dia. Yela depa kan bukan jenis yang simpan simpan. Dan apa jadi seterusnya biar dia & kawan kawannya sahaja tahu.
Sebab itu la daripada kita fake dengan orang tu, depan depan kemain lagi tapi bila kat belakang kita kutuk menyumpah dan macam macam lagi. Better kita jauhkan diri daripada dia. Bukan apa, dari buat dosa mengumpat orang tak tentu pasal. Baik diam je buat taktau apa orang tu buat. Thats what i'm trying to do now, elakkan mengumpat. Berdosa tau. Mulut orang perempuan ni dah lah pot pet pot pet. Tu yang kalau post kat blog panjang melebar.
Pengajarannya jangan cakap pasal orang lain. Perbaiki diri sendiri dulu. Masih banyak kelemahan kita yang kita tak sedar. Yang baik semuanya datang dari Allah & yang buruk datangnya daripada kita. Wallahualam. Assalamualaikum.
Wednesday, August 21, 2013
Sedih betul sedih
Ni haa nak cakap sikit. Dah lama nak cerita tapi selama ni macam tak terluah. Haha. Sebenarnya sedih sangat, sangat sangat dengan peminat yang terlalu sanjung artis ni. Dik/kak/bang oi nak minat tu tak kesah la, tapi jangan sampai menyanjung artis tu.
Here is a story yang saya rasa sangat sedih. Or maybe ada yang lagi sedih daripada ni. I was scrolling through my timeline on Instagram, then nampak la artis ni post gambar yang agak kurang sopan. so as a muslim, ada hamba Allah ni pun comment kat gambar tu dengan niat nak menegur. Pasal aurat dan halal haram macam tu la. Mula mula respons agak okay sbb mungkin ramai yg berfikiran macam hamba Allah ni cuma tak berani nak taip kat comment tu. Tapi bila yang fanatik terlampau dekat artis ni, pantang org cakap pasal artis dia kan, dia pun sound hamba Allah tadi dengan kata kata yg kasar. Lepastu makin ramai pulak yang bash hamba Allah ni sebab dia hanya menegur benda yang betul. Sensitip betul fanatik ni.
Well okay the point is, hamba Allah tu hanya menjalankan tugas amar maaruf & nahi mungkar. Mungkin betul juga bila orang kata cara dia tegur tak kena disebabkan public sangat. Tapi bila fikir balik, takkan dia nak text/whatsapp/wechat dgn artis tu memang takkan dilayan la kan. Kalau email entah artis tu buka atau tidak je la. Tu kita tak tau. Pendapat saya cara hamba Allah tu tegur memang sangat lembut & utk peringatan semua orang juga bukan untuk artis tu sahaja.
Tapi mereka yang fanatik ni marah bebenor & ini la yang buat sedihnya. Dimakinya pula hamba Allah tadi malah siap kata kubur lain lain. Jangan jaga tepi kain orang lain. Tak suka jangan la tengok. Dan sebagainya lagi. Astaghfirullah. Sedihnya. Kalau seseorang tu meninggal adakah dia berguling masuk kubur sendiri. Adakah kita melihat saja orang lain buat dosa. Dah kalau kebetulan tertengok lepastu nak tegur salah ke. Tak faham dengan fanatik ni. Padehal comment tersebut tak dituju kepada mereka tapi sensitip la katakan. Bukan nak ambil iktibar apa yang hamba Allah tu tegur. Saya ni pun tak perfect. Jauh dari perfect lagi. Bila orang tegur tu kita terima.
Semua orang pun hanya manusia biasa. Semua orang tak perfect, dunia ni hanya pinjaman Allah semata-mata. Jadi apa salahnya berkongsi ilmu apa yang ada. Sekurang kurangnya boleh betulkan diri & orang lain. InsyaAllah.
Semoga Allah mendengar doa doa kita yang aman di sini & dapat membantu mereka yang dalam kesusahan. #Prayforegypt.
Sunday, June 16, 2013
Moving Out
Heyyo, I am so happy that i downloaded this fonts app. So pretty. Okay, back to the title. I'm moving out from this house soon. Yay! So happy because i'm tired staying here with all the mess and stuff keep on increase year by year. It has been 15 years i lived here. So many memories and memorable stuff here. At first i am kinda sad knowing that we sold our house. But now, i'm the happiest and cant wait to move out. We started packing slowly. Its not that we gonna move in a rush. You know what i like about packing. I found stuff when i was a kid or stuff that meant a lot to me. Anyhow, i am excited to move out. Tak jauh pun pindah. Haha.
Sunday, June 9, 2013
Productive Sunday
Today is Sunday and guess what, i had a productive sunday. Wehoo for a lazy bum like me. Okay so i woke up early bcs i was so excited to watch movies. Its been awhile tak tengok movie. Mum sent me to midvalley, and on the way she was babbling abt me driving by my own so I wont troublesome her. Haha okay mum, i'll get my license soon.
So we plan a movie marathon. Actually plan for a three movies but end up buying only two movies. Which is KIL and Fast 6. Funny thing is that while we were watching KIL, they were only five people in the cinema. Me,tasha,saleha and another couple. It was my first time watch movie in a quiet cinema. Awkward. Haha. But hey, we make it like our 'mak bapak' punya cinema. The movie is a bit slow, but i kinda like Redza Minhat now. Celebrity crush alert! He is cute. And that girl Cristiane Suzanne look exactly like the girl in 500 days of summer.
Well Fast & Furious as usual awesome and da bomb. It just blew my mind everytime i watch it you know. And every sequel it just unique on its own. Impossible to do it in real life. I think this is one of the movie that i followed through all the sequel. Though it was rate 18, and thank god i'm already 18. Haha.
I'm looking forward for Monster University. It has been 12 years waiting for it you know. And also despicable me 2, because of that tiny minians are so adorable. I also wanted to watch Lari, so probably wait for it on Astro First. Bila lagi nak keluar kan. Haha.
Quite a long post. I am happy because i just had a productive day with awesome people. And i got my mac & cheese. Happy i am happy. May Allah bless us. Assalamualaikum.
Friday, June 7, 2013
Please understand
If you want something, you earn it. You work for it. Dont simply ask for something that has nothing to do with you. I hate people who took advantage of others kindness.
Thats why they said, 'jangan baik sangat sampai orang lain pijak kita'. True. Bcs know what, orang memang suka amik kesempatan.
Morning freshness
Alhamdulillah ya Allah for giving me another day in this world. This morning, my father get ready to work as usual. Keluar je terkejut tengpk kereta kakak pintu terbuka dan lampu kereta terbuka. My mum pun cuba my sister key. Tekan punya tekan. Alarm goes on. Yang tengah tidur lagi ni pun bukan main terjaga. Turun turun kecoh dah kat luar rumah about the car (kecoh between my family je) so my sister checked if anything went missing. Luckily only the smart tag was missing and nobody get hurt. Thank you Allah.
But my sister was a bit devastated because she topup her smart tag recently. Like my brother said the theft probably have 'alat pengesan smarttag'. Canggih betul. So be careful peeps. The world is too scary now. Luckily they didnt break or smash anything.
A piece of advice to the thief, cari la kerja yang halal. Walaupun sebagai tukang sapu sampah ataupun cleaner, yang penting kerja tu halal. Atau mungkin pencuri tu ada kerja tapi cari income lain. Come on man, banyak cara nak earn money nowadays. Many opportunity. So please jangan menyusahkan orang lain. Jangan cederakan orang lain. Allah dah sediakan jalan nak maju untuk diri masing masing. Kalau tak berusaha macam mana nak berjaya kan.
May Allah bless all muslims around the world. May Allah open the heart of the thief so that he/she will stop doing this kind of job. Amin. Assalamualaikum.
Hey June
Anyway, ramadhan is coming our way. Prepare yourself. Have you paid yr 'puasa ganti' yet? Well you better make it fast because ramadhan is around the corner. Use this ramadhan to improve ourself. Improve our relationships with Allah, family, friends. I know i am not perfect and i do make mistakes but it just a word from a humble person.
Thank you, may Allah bless you and all muslims. Assalamualaikum :)
Shattered Dream
Alhamdulillah with my result. Thats all i can say after my not so hardwork. Yeah, i admit im addicted to games during my matric year. So it basically my fault for not achieving great results like everyone else. But i am blessed, ya Allah. Thank you for everything.
I lost my opportunity to earn myself a macbook. But i learn something from it. I should have study well not bcs of the reward. Sepatutnya kerana Allah. Because everything we do, adalah kerana Allah. So i am grateful enough to have my family supporting me and accept my result the way it is. Alhamdulillah. By the way, congratulation tp everyone. Whatever your result is, terima dengan redha dan hati yang terbuka. Allah has better plans for us. And He knows what best for each and everyone of us. InsyaAllah.
May Allah bless anyone who might reading this. Thank you. Assalamualaikum ;)


